I'm not proud of the fact that I'm not a religious person. I do believe in God and Jesus and I do pray everyday. I just don't go to church anymore. I'm not sure why. It's probably laziness more than anything. I grew up in a church, but for some reason, I just didn't carry on in my adult life.
Every Sunday morning I wake up with the intention to change that, but it just hasn't happened yet. I want to raise my son in a church and I will. We just haven't, as a family, found a church where we are comfortable. It will happen though, because I will pray about it and God will guide us.
I pray with Maddox every night. We usually just say a basic prayer and ask that our family is kept safe and that those out there going through hard times will find peace. But over time, I've written a few specific prayers just for my son. I've never shared them with anyone. Not even him. But I will today.
To my sweet baby boy,
I pray that you sleep soundly tonight.
I pray that you wake with a smile.
I pray that you are always a good boy.
I pray that you grow up wanting to make a difference in this world.
I pray that you are always safe.
I pray that you are grateful for your family and everyone who loves you.
I pray that when you look at me, you feel love.
I pray that you always trust me.
I pray that you do good things with your life.
I pray that you are compassionate.
I pray that you love animals.
I pray that you will pray for others who are less fortunate than you.
I pray that you learn how to forgive.
I pray that you learn something new everyday.
I pray that you have the courage to handle any challenge that life brings to you.
I pray that you understand that I am your parent, not your friend.
I pray that you are honest.
I pray that you know how proud I am to be your mother.
I pray that Jesus is a part of your life.
I pray that you are never to proud to ask for help.
I pray that you one day experience the joys and hardships that come from raising your own children.